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Aug. 9th, 2006
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Unexpected day off, which are the best kind!
I'm going to work on the house, which, of course, needs it.
So, my ambiguous away message on chat utilities, in today's case means, "I'm here, but I'm busy. Feel free to IM me, but responses will be slow as I multitask."
Actually random IMs generally help my cleaning progress. *hint*
I'm going to work on the house, which, of course, needs it.
So, my ambiguous away message on chat utilities, in today's case means, "I'm here, but I'm busy. Feel free to IM me, but responses will be slow as I multitask."
Actually random IMs generally help my cleaning progress. *hint*
Productivity Update
Aug. 9th, 2006 10:10 amKitchen table has been cleaned and disassembled for upcoming arrival (Sunday) of my grandfather's buffet/hutch. The layout of this kitchen just screams for one, and the table has always been there simply to have it put somewhere, since it really didn't "go" anywhere else. I'm giving the table to 
LuneNoire when he moves out, and the table 
Dai_Syn bought will go in the living room. My plan is to have this place clean enough by the end of today to be able to put the table together.
Minor rearranging of the kitchen and foyer areas.
All tile floors cleaned, including the hands and knees portions, and the baseboards. (Those need painted, bad.)
That's it so far. Pretty much, my focus is just on the kitchen and living room areas today. Trust me, those are enough. Plus, doing the tile also included the hallway, foyer, and both bathrooms. So, I feel pretty good about that. When I get to the vacuuming, I'll likely do all of that, too, to the degree it's practical (some sections of the house just have too much shit on the floor that isn't part of today's agenda).
Anyway, gonna eat a bit and surf a bit, then back to work! :)
LuneNoire when he moves out, and the table Dai_Syn bought will go in the living room. My plan is to have this place clean enough by the end of today to be able to put the table together.Minor rearranging of the kitchen and foyer areas.
All tile floors cleaned, including the hands and knees portions, and the baseboards. (Those need painted, bad.)
That's it so far. Pretty much, my focus is just on the kitchen and living room areas today. Trust me, those are enough. Plus, doing the tile also included the hallway, foyer, and both bathrooms. So, I feel pretty good about that. When I get to the vacuuming, I'll likely do all of that, too, to the degree it's practical (some sections of the house just have too much shit on the floor that isn't part of today's agenda).
Anyway, gonna eat a bit and surf a bit, then back to work! :)
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Feeling very edgy right now. Much happier with the house. Still a lot of clutter around the desks, but I can live with that. In fact, it may be my next distraction.
I still want very much to make that post I mentioned a few days back, and today would be the perfect day for it. Except that I took advantage of wanting to clean the house to do so. And no regrets on that, believe me. I feel very good about that. But now, it's clean enough to satisfy me, so my next order of "housecleaning" has popped up in my head, and it's that post. And an email or two...
And yeah, the following are just excuses, and I know it, but I'm wallowing in them right now, and not going to apologize for it. I am, however, going to whine about it. *shrug* Did I mention I'm not perfect?
Anyway, all of the above mentioned writings put me in a very vulnerable place, and there are only a few sets of circumstances where I will allow myself into that space. Unfortunately, tonight does not contain that set of circumstances. It's scary enough to write the stuff to begin with. To do so under less than ideal circumstances REALLY scares the hell outta me.
So, I sit here, aching to get it out, and feeling paralyzed by that fear, and annoyed both at my rigidity in the self-imposed where- and why-fores of my writing, and at the Universe for not providing them, and for me for not demanding them. So... that's where I'm at.
Thinking about you guys, my LJ friends, especially those I know in real life. Missing you, feeling the absence of you...
I guess that's it. I'm feeling kinda lonely, but want very much to be alone tonight. Weird, huh?
So... I guess I'll straighten out my desk clutter.
My LJ account expires in 12 days, too. Ditto the Beastie. *sigh* (Well, less now, 'cause that email was a few days ago...)
I still want very much to make that post I mentioned a few days back, and today would be the perfect day for it. Except that I took advantage of wanting to clean the house to do so. And no regrets on that, believe me. I feel very good about that. But now, it's clean enough to satisfy me, so my next order of "housecleaning" has popped up in my head, and it's that post. And an email or two...
And yeah, the following are just excuses, and I know it, but I'm wallowing in them right now, and not going to apologize for it. I am, however, going to whine about it. *shrug* Did I mention I'm not perfect?
Anyway, all of the above mentioned writings put me in a very vulnerable place, and there are only a few sets of circumstances where I will allow myself into that space. Unfortunately, tonight does not contain that set of circumstances. It's scary enough to write the stuff to begin with. To do so under less than ideal circumstances REALLY scares the hell outta me.
So, I sit here, aching to get it out, and feeling paralyzed by that fear, and annoyed both at my rigidity in the self-imposed where- and why-fores of my writing, and at the Universe for not providing them, and for me for not demanding them. So... that's where I'm at.
Thinking about you guys, my LJ friends, especially those I know in real life. Missing you, feeling the absence of you...
I guess that's it. I'm feeling kinda lonely, but want very much to be alone tonight. Weird, huh?
So... I guess I'll straighten out my desk clutter.
My LJ account expires in 12 days, too. Ditto the Beastie. *sigh* (Well, less now, 'cause that email was a few days ago...)
LuneNoire and, to a lesser degree, 
BlckwngdOrcl have set it up so that I can have the set of circumstances I "require" to make hard entries. I'm looking at the clock and getting all anxious about being able to pull it off in time. Wish I'd known sooner, but I'm not going to look a gift horse in the mouth. I'm just gonna start typing.
The Next Step in Polyamory
Aug. 9th, 2006 06:58 pmI'm trying to get in the mindset to do this again. I flit in and out of it, and I had mostly flitted out when I found out I'd be "able" to make this entry. I'm sure a great deal of it is avoidance. I seem to be "in the mood" and have the "right" circumstances to make the entry only when I'm tired, or don't have enough time to do it justice, or something like that.
Anyway, ( here's the inevitable cut-tag... )
Anyway, ( here's the inevitable cut-tag... )
I wanted to make this as a separate entry, although it's connected to the previous one.
As I said, my husband has been more than supportive to me in all this. He's doing all the right things, and he even surprises me sometimes at how well he's handling this, and how he knows just the right things to say sometimes. Something he said the other day totally made me bawl.
"It doesn't matter what my ideal *body type* is. You're my ideal woman."
How'd I get so lucky?
Shortly thereafter, I found this article, which seems to back him up. (And also backs up something Fig said a long time ago.) I still don't believe him half the time, though, even though I get warm fuzzies to hear him say such things. But they have that same ring of Truth I've learned to recognize... I just need to open up and let that in.
As a side note, I feel marginally calmer after having written that, but I very much look forward to breaking down. Heh.
As I said, my husband has been more than supportive to me in all this. He's doing all the right things, and he even surprises me sometimes at how well he's handling this, and how he knows just the right things to say sometimes. Something he said the other day totally made me bawl.
"It doesn't matter what my ideal *body type* is. You're my ideal woman."
How'd I get so lucky?
Shortly thereafter, I found this article, which seems to back him up. (And also backs up something Fig said a long time ago.) I still don't believe him half the time, though, even though I get warm fuzzies to hear him say such things. But they have that same ring of Truth I've learned to recognize... I just need to open up and let that in.
As a side note, I feel marginally calmer after having written that, but I very much look forward to breaking down. Heh.
