Posty

So, after having said that I was in a mood to post, and after having cleaned off my desk, in order to have a good area to post in, I find myself spacing out and reluctant to do so. So, the plan is to post, anyway, feeling somewhat less-than-inspired, and see what comes of it.

I think my first post will about my relationship with LuneNoire.


( Assuming this is going to get long... )

On a Lighter Note...

Tagged by LuneNoire!

"Name five items or services with which you could be bribed. Money is the obvious example. After your answers 'tag' at least five people so that this will spread like a stinky wildfire."

1. Dinner and a movie/play
2. Just about any outing. Take me to the zoo, the museum, the amusement park, whatever
3. Anything metaphysical... workshops, classes, aura photographs, psychic readings, etc..
4. Coffee/etc. discussions with friends
5. SEX! (This should probably be #1)

I don't tag people. Steal at your discretion.

And, as I type this, I am talking to BlckwngdOrcl on the phone, and he's on his way home, and he created this Highway Haiku. I put it here for posterity, and your enjoyment.

The red light mocks me
Sitting in traffic my fate
I want to go home.

More Codependency Stuff...

The more I learn about codependency, the more I realize I've done it for as long as I can remember in serious relationships. This is mostly self-indulgent, I suppose, but it might also help me figure stuff out as I type. (I'm using real names instead of LJ names in the cut tags, 'cause I haven't had much success mixing the two.)

( Rob )

( Leo )

( Fig )

( Glenn )

I think the main themes here are loss of self. All of my own volition, sometimes in direct violation of someone begging me to go find myself (Fig). I feel like my companionship isn't enough, that I can't just BE. I need to be doing something for someone, or else I have no worth, no purpose in a relationship. Which, I suppose, is the revelation of typing this out. It doesn't occur to me that just BEING is enough. It still kinda boggles my mind.

(This post didn't turn out to be as detailed as I expected, but hopefully got the point across. I think the other post wore me out for that. I'm likely going to hold off on the other post I have in mind. I think I'm wiped out for the day. Thanks for "listening".)

Heh

Your Birthdate: October 16

You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head. You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking. People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right. You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself. Your strength: Your original approach to thinking Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others Your power color: Pale blue Your power symbol: Wavy line Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?