Good Morning

Well, my original intention of curling up and reading the books for my class assignment yesterday was pre-empted by sleep. Strangely enough, blckwngdorcl is energized by sex, while I'm the one who wants to roll over and go to sleep afterwards. Which I did. For 10 hours, give or take a couple of periods of wakefulness that together didn't add up to 30 minutes. So, here I am awake at 5am on a Saturday (I actually woke up at 4am; I've already showered and everything). It's been my intention to clean the house today. Partially for my own sanity, partially so simplysakka and wyzard_vyrnahnn can come home to a clean house. I'm hoping I actually get off my ass and do it, though. :)

jupitercornwall ('cause it's Moose!) called yesterday to tell me my computer is fixed. blckwngdorcl's apparently needs more work, though. At any rate, I plan to pick it up after I clean the house today. I won't lie and say I won't miss this kickass monitor that simplysakka has, though. I think I have a new monitor, though. I don't know if it ever got traded out or not...

Oh, and I had another dream about being back in Illinois again. I'm not gonna bother posting this to the dreamlist community. Just a quickie. blckwngdorcl and I had moved back there. We were apparently living with my parents. I think they thought it was indefinite, and were happy about that. In the dream, I didn't have any impression that this was the past, which meant my parents should have been living in Warsaw, which is, I think, what I thought was the case. However, I drove to Bourbonnais at some point, and it was roughly the same distance and direction it would have been if I'd been coming from Dwight, where my parents (and I) used to live. Strangely enough, my sister Dawn was living there, in an apartment that looked strikingly like my sister Naia's last apartment in Warsaw. *shrug* It's a dream. I don't suppose little details like that are supposed to make sense. Anyway, I was leaving my sister's apartment, and attempting to call my old landlord (well, landlady) to see if I could get a place to live from her. She still loves me, in spite of Fig fucking her over after I left. I had told her there was a 50/50 chance of it - that the Fig I knew would never do that, but that he hadn't been the Fig I knew for a while before I left. But anyway... I couldn't get through to her in Dawn's apartment. She couldn't hear me, I could barely hear her, etc.. So, I called her once I got in the car. Once she figured out who I was, she was happy to hear from me, and did have an apartment ready that I could move into. I was trying to ask details, and she really couldn't remember any, so I think we made an appointment for blckwngdorcl and I to go look at it. I think I was vaguely aware that this was likely going to disappoint my parents, who I think wanted us to stay with them forever. I also remember wondering, as I was talking to Nancy (the landlady), how I was going to pay for the apartment. I suddenly remembered that of course I had a job at Fox Center if I wanted it. I don't know if, in the dream, I already had the job, or knew that I could basically walk in and be hired on the spot.

The dream ended about there, but dreams of this nature always get me to thinking about that possibility. Moving back to Illinois, that is. The fact is, I could walk into Fox Center and be hired on the spot. I'm qualified for about half a dozen different jobs there, and I still have my card that proves I worked for the state in the past, so there's a tiny possibility of me being reinstated rather than just re-hired. And, from what I understand, they're scarily short of nurses lately, and LPNs there are now making what I was making as an HPC. And I could always get promoted again. Housing situation, same thing. I could call Nancy up and say I was looking for an apartment, and she'd gladly set me up with any she had. If she were dead and/or no longer doing it, it's likely her son Troy would be in charge of that, and I knew him pretty well, too, and I doubt very much there'd be a problem calling him up and getting the same deal. The cost of living there is cheaper, and I know of a few places blckwngdorcl could work, too. Although he really wouldn't need to.

Speaking of blckwngdorcl, though, there would be a problem with it. I'd have a ready-made support system there. Granted, there are quite a few of those people I think I'd have trouble relating to again, and I think they'd have some trouble relating to me. I'm not who I used to be. And even though it would be a struggle not to fall into old patterns, I know I don't want to do that. I don't need to be Stoopid Quib anymore. Which is a danger for me, one that blckwngdorcl doesn't face. But still. I don't have any idea who I could set him up with that would interest him at all, other than Frog. Or Mark Jensen, but he's in Bloomington. He and Mark would totally hit it off. :)

Also, I'd be afraid of losing what I've gained here. And yes, I could still take the Core classes, drive or fly down here 4 times a year and do the work, but part of the work involves twice monthly therapy sessions with a Core therapist, and as far as I know, there aren't any in that part of the country. Atlanta, NYC, and somewhere in California are the only Core institutes in the country, and it's likely the therapists are all in that area too.

So, it's back to that argument. Financial stability, which I'd totally have there, or following my heart's desire. And, as tempting as financial stability is, I think I have to stick with profundis's advice, and take my heart's desire.

Besides, the financial stuff is getting better, anyway. :)

Housecleaning

Well, most of the upstairs is done. By which I mean, all the dusting in the living room and dining room is done, and everything that requires wood cleaner in the kitchen. I haven't done the rest of the kitchen at all, and I haven't done any of the floors, nor de-cat-haired the couches. So, really, it doesn't seem like I've gotten much done. However, the kitchen isn't scarydirty or anything like that. Just a couple of dishes in the sink, and the stuff in the dishwasher is clean, so I can pretty much just clean off the counters and be done with it.

Except the floors. I hate vacuuming, and I hate mopping, even with my kickass FloorMate. Granted, I hate it much LESS, but still. liljuice likes to vacuum, but he's working right now, after having had no sleep, so he can't do it right now, and I couldn't, in good conscience, ask him to do it when he gets home. And I don't want to wait that long, anyway. So, I'm stuck doing it, once I convince myself of it. I can't even use the excuse that blckwngdorcl is asleep, since we both agreed that, with all the white noise in our bedroom, me running the vacuum downstairs will likely not wake him. So, no reprieve there.

Of course, I've never liked doing floors to begin with. Keep in mind that my mother is such a freak about it that the lines in the carpet created by the vacuum cleaner had to be parallel. People wonder why I'm such a freak about the house being clean. I have the worst of both worlds, I think. I can let the house get scarydirty (by my standards) for weeks on end, then I lose my mind and clean everything. According to pretty much anyone who's been around during the process, I'm a raving psychobitch when I clean. But I think the reason I really despise doing the floors now is 'cause my cats have made them much filthier than they ever need to be. *sigh* I think there's been an improvement, but it's hard to tell after all this time.

Anyway, I'm gonna surf a little bit and get back to it. Really, with having gotten up so early, I am ahead of the game as far as getting done in a reasonable time. Must remember that.

Housecleaning... 'Cause I Know You're All So Fucking Interested :)

Well, the main level is done (we have a tri-level). Yes, floors, too. The main level consists of the living room, dining room, and kitchen. By far the worst of the house. Now I need to do the lower level, which consists of the office and the laundry room. Doesn't really take long at all, when I get to doing it. But right now, I'm going to surf and eat corn flakes. I can't really do much of the upper level till blckwngdorcl wakes up, 'cause the upper level consists of the 3 bedrooms, the bathroom, and the hallway. I can do the dusting in the bathroom and hallway, but no vacuuming. And, of course, I can't do anything in our bedroom. And, luckily, liljuice's bedroom, and simplysakka and wyzard_vyrnahnn's bedroom isn't my responsibility. The hallway is, though, 'cause everything in it is mine - an altar to Sango, an altar to Oshun, and a mirror, 'cause Murke likes to look at himself. :)

Oh... there is ONE thing that needs done on the main level. The dishwasher needs unloaded and reloaded. But I'm going to hit blckwngdorcl up for that, since he neglected to do something similar the other day when he said he wouldn't forget. *ahem*

Oh, Yeah...

By the way, I keep forgetting I have G-Mail invites, if anyone wants 'em.

Housecleaning... Still

OK, the lower level is done. Even the floors... even the stairs that everyone who vacuums *cough*liljuice*cough* usually needs to be reminded several times to do. Which just leaves the upstairs.

Based on my calculations, I likely have another 7 hours before blckwngdorcl wakes up, so I should probably go and do the dusting up there.

But not yet. Damn, I'm hot and sweaty, and even though I remember taking a shower this morning, it certainly doesn't FEEL like I did...

Just for Fun

If you read this, and/or think I might have any ocassion to use your LJ name in reference to you in a post, go to this site (http://rosequoll.com/lj.html) and comment with what animal you want me to use with your name. I'm trying to pick some for people, but for some, I have no clue. I mean, obviously blckwngdorcl should be a black bird, and profundis should be a 'gator, and toguspyder should be a... well, you get the idea. But let me know what you wanna be, and I'll make a cheat file for myself with the codes, and that's what I'll use from now on.

For anyone who's interested, I prefer the Panther/Cougar or the Brown Eagle/Bird, since those are my totems. Or the Tiger, 'cause I keep being associated with that...