Book of Mirrors

A long time ago, I was told by one of the P&D psychics that I had a bunch of spirit guides around me. This is something others have told me, and something that shows up in the past two aura photos (and possibly more) that I've had taken (it's hard to see in the icon). She said that they're just waiting to talk to me, and that they like water. They're waiting to talk to me under the specific circumstance of me being free-floating in water. (Bathtubs apparently aren't good enough - I asked.)

Well, since there aren't any sensory-deprivation tanks here like they have in Chicago, I figured the only way to do this was in a swimming pool. I've had some opportunities to do this, and haven't taken them, over the past... I think 2-3 years. But it's never left my mind.

So, today, I got some pool noodles that spy_isis and toguspyder were getting rid of, and walked down to the apartment complex pool at 2am this morning with blckwngdorcl in tow, to make sure I wasn't disturbed, and to be around in case anything weird happened. (And y'know, it's stupid to go swimming alone in the dark.)

So, I acclimated myself to the water, got comfy on the noodles (so I wouldn't have to think about trying to keep my head above water when I float), and laid there for a while. There was a radio playing the whole time, but when I put my head under water, I couldn't hear it much at all, and not enough to bother me.

I allowed myself to just lie there a while, get used to it, before I started grounding, and taking stock of my chakras. That didn't go too badly. I tried to just relax into it after that. My solar plexus and heart chakras were still tight, and unless I concentrated on relaxing them, they tightened up again immediately. But I tried to remain relaxed, and open. And patient.

I really wasn't getting anything. I tried to relax into it, and actually did better at that than I would have expected, especially given my inability to relax lately. At one point, I asked if they were still there. I got a response from that. "No, we're still here." The voice was kindly, bemused. I got the impression of the guy from Contact. "This is just the first step. In time, you'll take another." Shortly thereafter, I got FREEZING, shivering, teeth-chattering cold. I had to get out of the water.

We walked back. I didn't want to wear shoes. I felt off-balance, and heavy, and the thought of wearing shoes made me feel even more off-balance. I was able to walk OK barefoot. I was mostly warmed when I got back, but I took a hot shower for warmth and to rinse the chlorine out of my hair.

blckwngdorcl had asked me if I'd heard the owl when I was in the pool. I had. At the beginning, it hooted, twice. I wondered if that was the message I was supposed to glean from tonight, in addition to being assured my guides are still around.

So, since my Animal Speak book apparently couldn't be found, I found some stuff about the symbolism of Owl on the internet. Here are some excerpts:

Owl - Wisdom, truth, patience, darkness, a death messenger, divination, solitude, detachment, wisdom,
change, totem of clairvoyants and mystics.

THE OWL
Some believed that the owl was sent to warn people about death. If someone had an unusual sighting of owl it could be a sign that something gloomy was about to happen. Hearing an owl hoot was a warning sign of danger.

OWL
Wisdom, knowledge, go-betweens twixt night and day, life and death, the Middle Earth and the Underworld.

Interesting.... if that's the message, I take it as a portent... things to come. Door opened, and whatnot.

But, for now, I must sleep.