Somewhat Related...

[bookofmirrors]

A few things I want to address before I go to bed. Actually, there's something fairly serious I want to address, but that's going to be the subject of a later post. The stuff I'm addressing now is mostly to let people know I've heard them.

There have been a few opinions voiced (and perhaps there are similar, unvoiced, opinions out there) about that post making me (paraphrased) untrustworthy, questionable as a friend. I'm not ignoring these comments, but it's not something I feel I can focus on right now. In the end, I don't want to coerce anyone into being, or remaining, my friend, on any level. I'd miss the friendship, to be sure. Don't take my lack of reaction as apathy. But I need to work on my own shit right now.

I appreciate the viewpoints I've gotten. Some of the comments to my posts were kinda flame-y. I tend not to respond to flame-y comments in my LJ in kind (sorry, bulwerk), especially if the flames aren't directed at me. Whatever wars go on in my comments section, I leave to those commenting. I'm not a referee, even if my LJ ends up being the arena. I'll probably talk to some of you later, perhaps on IM, as the mood strikes me. Again, I'm still assimilating the whole thing. But thanks to all of you, regardless of your viewpoint and content.

Can't think of anything more to say right now, which makes me wonder if I'm missing something. However, I've noticed how tired I truly am, which works out about right, given the time, and my schedule for tomorrow.

Good night, all.

Comments

[mister-bitters.livejournal.com]

Admit it, I made you laugh.

[bookofmirrors.livejournal.com]

As your rants always do, my dear. :)

More in that looking at a bloody, flesh-like-spaghetti-sauce car wreck where you can't quite look away kinda way.

Or maybe more like horror flicks are amusing 'cause they're so over-the-top.

Anyway, yeah, I laughed. It was some much-needed levity to the situation. Even though I'm sure you meant what you said.

[mister-bitters.livejournal.com]

I meant what I said, but not in the over-the-top fashion. Friends do not attempt or threaten to "get even" or rub your nose in "shit" when you've offended them. The fact that Sakka did just that shows that she is not a friend.

[elorie.livejournal.com]

Something else occured to me...

I know you've been working on your shit. You've been going to workshops, delving inward, and generally stirring things up.

Many times when people do that, those issues get played out in their lives such that they are forced to integrate and apply new insights. I think, just a feeling, that that is what is happening here.

So step back from it a bit. Check your assumptions...hell, turn them upside down and shake them. Pay attention to your body, what it's telling you about your feelings. Connect, don't detach. Ground and listen.

[bookofmirrors.livejournal.com]

That's the plan. There is much to think about.

Thank you for everything. :)

[elorie.livejournal.com]

:)

Live, in my journal: More rants! Now with extra pentacles!

:D

Hey gal

[zydee.livejournal.com]

You've hit on why I tend not to write about that kinda thing in my LJ. Nobody ever comments on it, though. Maybe I need to stir shit up too. I'd prefer to say what I have to say directly, than write about it in a journal. That's just me though, and if you feel your approach was better, then know I'm not put on this earth to judge anybody. My way isn't the ONLY way.

I'm tempted to ask Acorn if something's fuckin retrograde right now; I've been going through a lot of spiritual upheaval as well, in the past few days. I bet he'd know. Sounds like a lot of us are doing some spiritual spring-cleaning.

Cas

Re: Hey gal

[bookofmirrors.livejournal.com]

It wasn't the better way. It was simply my default mode, and it ended up where it ended up.

There is crazy stuff going on astrologically. profundis mentioned it, too. kieracaitlyn posts that stuff in her LJ. You should check it out.

Did You Get E-Mail?

[(Anonymous)]

Hi K'la. I just wanted to ask if you got the e-mail I sent you at Yahoo? I also wanted to let you know why I decided to delete my journal. I sent you a note to the Yahoo name you have on here. I didn't get a response, so I didn't know if I sent it to the wrong place. Anyway, here it is if you didn't get it that way. Lee wanted me to get you to ask Glenn and Will if they were going to keep their i4get e-mail accounts. They haven't checked it in a while and he said the server is getting real full and he will start deleting mail 30 days old in July. It is not their mail that is causing the problem, but someone else who has an account (he has over 12,000 e-mails). Lee didn't say why their were so many, but it was dragging the server and he was going to have to start deleting old mail. He wanted to let them know about the process. He said if they needed, he could forward them their mail to other addresses. You can e-mail me at michelle@i4get.com.

I decided to delete my account on LJ and do my journaling in a different way. It had nothing to do with you. Everytime I got on, it just kind of reminded me of all the mess. It was nice to be able to conversate with you- even though it wasn't under good circumstances. We still love everyone up that way- even though it has been a big stab in the heart.