*sigh*

[bookofmirrors]

See, the problem is, I really want to make good posts. I do. But, it seems that the rare occassions I have to actually take the time to do so, I'm not feeling particularly introspective. Which sucks, really. There's a part of me that wants to perform. I mean, I know I make some damn good, self-introspective, thoughtful posts. (profundis said so!) And I know that those are my favorite kinds of posts to read. So, part of me wants to be of the subset of LJ users that makes (what I consider to be) really good posts. So, I feel like I've been a bit lax in that lately. And, not just for others. I haven't been doing a lot of contemplation myself. I actually contemplate better when I do journal entries - something about getting it all down on "paper", letting my fingers flow as quick as my thoughts. It's a good thing for me, and I learn a lot about myself, life in general, etc..

But, right now, time is an issue, as is, like I said, my mood to do so. My mood to do so might be moreso if I knew I had unlimited time, but blckwngdorcl and I are planning (for the 3rd week in a row) to go to Town Center Border Pagans tonight, and I'd like this not to be the third botched attempt at it.

So, I'll make an open date with myself (and the readers of this LJ) to make a "good" post. In the meantime, I've been reading everything on my Friends list, and keeping up. Found, as always, lots of quizzes that everyone is doing, so, of course, I had to take them. I keep taking them, and saving the html tags in a notepad on my desktop, so I can post them eventually. So, what I end up with is mainly fluffy or practically nonexistent LJ posts, with lots of quizzes.

Gods, please believe that I'm more substantial than


ADJUSTMENT
"the mediator, adjuster,
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Comments

[elorie.livejournal.com]

**sputter** **gack**

Write for YOURSELF. Don't worry about what anyone else thinks. I sure as hell don't. Write what you want to write...and if you want to do differently, do it for YOU.

**makes face at you** **phhhppt** **grin**

[bookofmirrors.livejournal.com]

I do, honest. I guess I just want others to appreciate what I do. Kind of like when you know you look hot, and you're checking to see if people are scoping you out.

OK, you're right. That DOES sound pathetic...

Bleh.

:)

[elorie.livejournal.com]

no, when you put it that way, it makes perfect sense **grin**

But you shouldn't feel guilty about what you write, or don't write. Guilt is bad.

We should do more meditatey stuff.

[isarma.livejournal.com]

Seconded, guilt is bad! Stop that, dammit...:)

Sometimes we're just too busy living our lives to write about them... and sometimes, we take the time to write and it sorts things out...and sometimes, we're avoiding dealing with stuff by not doing the stuff that enables us to face our issues (i agree with you, LJ helps me do this, too). learn to know and trust you times and places, and trust them, dammit.

trust good, guilt bad.

*hugs*

[bookofmirrors.livejournal.com]

Hmmmm.... hadn't thought of trust as the opposite of guilt... but it works in this case.

I like that. Thanks.

[kapua23.livejournal.com]

Sweety. I read your journal and I see alot in your writings. I see things that are normally hidden from others. Maybe me writing this to you will help you a little.

For years I suffered emotionally because I could not express how I truly felt to anyone. One day I could not take it anymore. I hurt so bad inside that I knew that one day I might hurt myself or a person that I love. I finally found a pagan psychologist. I told her things that I could not tell anyone ever because I thought that what I was feeling was not normal. She told me that writing would help me express how I feel. Even if I wrote it down and then burned the paper in the fire.

This was almost 2 years ago. I stopped seeing her about a year ago, but we still talked about life. Just recently I have met someone with but know and care for deeply. She has opened the floodgates that not even the physcologist could open. I sit down and I write how I really feel about things and I feel so much stress released. I feel 100% better. I do not worry about who see what because they are my feelings and no one can change them.

I do also want to say to you that I used to be like you. I used to mold myself into another person. Everyone wanted me to be a certain way. Wanting to please everyone, which I still do, can hurt you more than you know. Eventually you become lost and cannot figure out who you are anymore because you have been so many things to so many different people.

Who cares about what people think? Heck everyone is different. Even if there was a perfect person someone can find a fault in that person. Be yourself and love yourself because you are the only one who counts. Sorry this is a long response, but I want to let you know you have many friends and many of them just want you to be who you are and not who you think they want you to be. If your friends cannot forgive you if you make them upset or mad, then are they really your friends?

Take it from me you cannot have everything. Look at my life. You know some of it. Especially the recent events. I know now I cannot please everyone so the only ones that matter are the people that will forgive me and those I truly love. I cannot help but feel sad for those friends of mine who cannot or will not forgive me but that is life.

**Never wish upon yourself another's life, for those who walks in another's shoe will still live the same life with worse consequences than if they walked in thy own shoes.**

[bookofmirrors.livejournal.com]

:) Thanks, sweetie.