Up Too Early...

[bookofmirrors]

I went to bed early last night. Which is good in many ways. BlckwngdOrcl and I grabbed a bite to eat last night when I got home. Great food - AccessAtlanta is 2 for 2.

The downside of it is twofold.

One, I completely forgot about a yoga workshop that was recommended by one of the people in my Core class. I'd been trying to remember, too. I wasn't gonna be able to go to the whole workshop, of course, but I was interested in going to the Friday night lecture, at least. So... dammit. I mean, I like yoga in general, but the thing that interested me in particular about this yoga/guru was that, according to my friend, it really honors the Lower Self. Most yoga is very centered in the Higher Self. *sigh* Well, I can only imagine there'll be other times.

Two, it turned out to cost more than I expected, which means I don't have the money for my appointment tomorrow, which I scheduled months ago. I was already a bit short for my bills anyway, and being extremely grateful for being able to combine 2 payments into one month for what we owe SimplySakka and Wyzard_Vyrnahnn (April, guys), and was going to be able to barely cover the appointment to begin with, but when I remembered that the first appointment was cheaper than the regular price, I thought we might be able to afford a cheap dinner out.

Yeah. Didn't turn out to be cheap. On the bright side, probably the BEST Italian I've ever had, hands DOWN. Dai_Syn and I MUST go there! Also, the waiter one-upped me. I will often, if I can't decide on what to eat, narrow it down to 2-3 choices, and tell whoever's serving us to pick for me. Which is what I did last night. Much to my surprise and delight, when my meal arrived, it was a half-portion of BOTH. And both were exquisite, as was BlckwngdOrcl's food.

So, per usual, 2 days after payday, I'm broke. The bright side being we have rent, and much-needed cat litter. Actually, I'm not horribly bummed out about it. Partially 'cause I'm mostly desensitized to being broke all the time. Partially because there's a light at the end of the tunnel now, however slow-moving. Just a matter of time.

I'm off work today, in order to attend the wedding of BlckwngdOrcl's niece. This whole wedding is a bit surreal. This is partially 'cause we don't see his family that often. We found out about this wedding at Christmas. Not so terribly unusual, right? Except that the last time we'd seen them, a few months before, she hadn't even been dating everyone, and was lamenting about her experiences on eHarmony and whatnot. (The way that came out implies she was being whiny, which she wasn't, just to clarify.) Anyway, so we show up at Christmas, and she has a boyfriend. OK, no biggie. But then she said they were engaged. What?! So, we were kinda blown away by that one. I mean, was she serious?? And then when they said the wedding was April 1... well, we were definitely expecting it to be a joke. But, no joke, and off we go to witness the nuptials. I mean, I can't say it's inappropriate or anything like that. Hell, BlckwngdOrcl and I were married from our first date, as far as we were concerned. I've heard other stories of it happening to others. And those tend to be the most amazing of relationships. So, more power to them. Oh, and get this... Andrew and Andrea. Andy and Andi. Hee. :)

I've been a bit more tired lately. BlckwngdOrcl's schedule is such that we're getting up at 4am some mornings, thus far the same days that I'm awake until 1am that night/the following morning. Not so good. I've been taking that time, while I sit in my car in the parking lot at Sona, to read the book on codependency I got from my teacher during that class that kicked my ass. It's interesting how completely OFF my thinking is. Honestly, I just assumed everybody felt the same way I do about things, and now I see it's all part of this huge distorted pattern. *shakes head* I've got a lot of re-learning to do. At this point, trying to put it into words comes out very confusing, even to me, so I'm not going to write about that, now. Suffice it to say that, hopefully, there'll be a lot of changes made.

I think that's all the rambling I have for this morning. A few more entries to come, then I'm crawling back in bed to snuggle.

Comments

[simplysakka.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm glad the "every other month if necessary" thing helps you guys out.

And as far as re-learning goes, I'm with you. Try learning to think like a Buddhist when you were raised Catholic.

But I'm up for the challenge.

Have a good weekend, hon.