Can I Go to Bed Now?
Feb. 9th, 2006 01:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bookofmirrorsYeah, so, today was going to be a day of long and meaningful LJ posts. Or, I should say *glances at clock* that yesterday was going to be a day of long and meaningful LJ posts.
Ahem.
What happened instead was, I woke up, caught up on all computer-related stuff, and went back to bed, 'cause I had gotten up too early to begin with, and hadn't had enough sleep. This became intermittent dozing, between interacting with the still-depressedblckwngdorcl. I was in too good of a mood to let his get me down, and the morning included many giggle fits, and a shower together, followed by a late lunch at Fuddruckers. Of course, on the way to Fuddruckers, serious conversation ensued, which gave the rest of the day an overcast feeling, for both of us, I think.
So, still exhausted, I laid down to take a nap when I came home. I woke up, made a half-hearted attempt to do/finish laundry (which still isn't done, really), watched some DVR recordings and some regular TV, and laid down to go to sleep, even though I wasn't really tired, and was, in fact, still miserable from our talk earlier. Whenblckwngdorcl came to bed, we talked some more, and were able to connect. Bottom line is, things are hard right now. Not insurmountable, but hard. And neither of us are sure how long it's gonna be that way, or how well we're going to deal with it while it is that way. And we're both pretty sure we hate it in the interim. But, we're also both sure that we wanna stay together.
So. That's the short version. After that talk, I rolled over to either go to sleep, or come out here and write the long version. And, in an attempt at procrastination, I caught up on everything again (you prolific bastards), and am now out of the mood to write the long version. That, and I'm tired, and I need to go to work tomorrow, and it's 2-fucking-am.
I need a vacation. Y'know, a paid one. And it's only February.
Anyway, I hope to post the long version later. I know why I'm procrastinating it. It's scary. It involves confessions about myself I'd rather not make. It involves outing myself about things I'd rather stick my fingers in my ears and go lalalala about. Of course, it's those same things that are wreaking havoc in my relationship withblckwngdorcl and myself right now, so I'll have to do it.
But, for now, I'm going to pretend discretion is the better part of valor, and go back to bed. If I still can't sleep (which I doubt, 'cause I'm way tired now), I'll come back and post the long version. If I fall asleep... well, we'll all have to wait.
Ahem.
What happened instead was, I woke up, caught up on all computer-related stuff, and went back to bed, 'cause I had gotten up too early to begin with, and hadn't had enough sleep. This became intermittent dozing, between interacting with the still-depressed
blckwngdorcl. I was in too good of a mood to let his get me down, and the morning included many giggle fits, and a shower together, followed by a late lunch at Fuddruckers. Of course, on the way to Fuddruckers, serious conversation ensued, which gave the rest of the day an overcast feeling, for both of us, I think. So, still exhausted, I laid down to take a nap when I came home. I woke up, made a half-hearted attempt to do/finish laundry (which still isn't done, really), watched some DVR recordings and some regular TV, and laid down to go to sleep, even though I wasn't really tired, and was, in fact, still miserable from our talk earlier. When
blckwngdorcl came to bed, we talked some more, and were able to connect. Bottom line is, things are hard right now. Not insurmountable, but hard. And neither of us are sure how long it's gonna be that way, or how well we're going to deal with it while it is that way. And we're both pretty sure we hate it in the interim. But, we're also both sure that we wanna stay together.So. That's the short version. After that talk, I rolled over to either go to sleep, or come out here and write the long version. And, in an attempt at procrastination, I caught up on everything again (you prolific bastards), and am now out of the mood to write the long version. That, and I'm tired, and I need to go to work tomorrow, and it's 2-fucking-am.
I need a vacation. Y'know, a paid one. And it's only February.
Anyway, I hope to post the long version later. I know why I'm procrastinating it. It's scary. It involves confessions about myself I'd rather not make. It involves outing myself about things I'd rather stick my fingers in my ears and go lalalala about. Of course, it's those same things that are wreaking havoc in my relationship with
blckwngdorcl and myself right now, so I'll have to do it.But, for now, I'm going to pretend discretion is the better part of valor, and go back to bed. If I still can't sleep (which I doubt, 'cause I'm way tired now), I'll come back and post the long version. If I fall asleep... well, we'll all have to wait.
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Date: 2006-02-09 12:10 pm (UTC)Anyway, *hugs* cause it seems like you need them right now.
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Date: 2006-02-09 02:37 pm (UTC)thought you could use a giggle.
Ok all kidding aside, you tell us here what you think you need too. If something needs to stay just between the two of you keep it there. It will drive the curious among us nuts but we will get over it.
It heartens me to hear the prognosis is good even though the patient is in serious condition.
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Date: 2006-02-09 02:38 pm (UTC)