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I Had a Good Subject Line, Honest....
Mar. 30th, 2005 11:24 pmDon't know where it went, though...
Oh, wait, I remember!!!
No... no, that wasn't it...
Dammit...
Well, anyway...
The past few days have been trying, not in a terrible-things-have-happened sense, but in a damn-is-my-plate-full sense. And not just the work thing. That's a given. But the stuff going on with various people and various dynamics has left me feeling even more disconnected than usual. After much frustration yesterday, I was able to connect a bit more with myself. I know I'm not there yet, but at least I don't feel so ...numb.
At any rate, class starts tomorrow, so I have 5 days of upcoming Core goodness. Connection is imminent. :) We'll be discussing the Rigid Structure. Don't ask me what that means. I still haven't purchased the books I'm supposed to be reading, and I don't recall having heard much about that structure before. My guess is that OCD would be likely in this structure, but really, I'm just talking out my ass. I'll know by Monday, though. Maybe I'll even tell you. But not in this LJ. ;)
Anyway, I'm including the lyrics to two songs that tend to calm me down instantly. I don't know why, the words certainly aren't soothing. One's depressing as hell, really, and the other is beautiful poetry, but not necessarily anything I would usually find particularly inspiring. At any rate, I like 'em, and being in a fucked-up headspace will sometimes cause me to play them over and over and over and over and over... again in the car while I drive. Like for an hour. But I always feel better.
(Both Pantera, and yes, the second one is a remake of the old Black Sabbath tune.)
( Suicide Note, Part I )
( Planet Caravan )
And now, I can't decide if I want to (figuratively) get out the popcorn and revel in the latest drama (that DOESN'T involve me!), or go the fuck to bed.
I'll head upstairs. Smithers says it's bedtime.
Oh, wait, I remember!!!
No... no, that wasn't it...
Dammit...
Well, anyway...
The past few days have been trying, not in a terrible-things-have-happened sense, but in a damn-is-my-plate-full sense. And not just the work thing. That's a given. But the stuff going on with various people and various dynamics has left me feeling even more disconnected than usual. After much frustration yesterday, I was able to connect a bit more with myself. I know I'm not there yet, but at least I don't feel so ...numb.
At any rate, class starts tomorrow, so I have 5 days of upcoming Core goodness. Connection is imminent. :) We'll be discussing the Rigid Structure. Don't ask me what that means. I still haven't purchased the books I'm supposed to be reading, and I don't recall having heard much about that structure before. My guess is that OCD would be likely in this structure, but really, I'm just talking out my ass. I'll know by Monday, though. Maybe I'll even tell you. But not in this LJ. ;)
Anyway, I'm including the lyrics to two songs that tend to calm me down instantly. I don't know why, the words certainly aren't soothing. One's depressing as hell, really, and the other is beautiful poetry, but not necessarily anything I would usually find particularly inspiring. At any rate, I like 'em, and being in a fucked-up headspace will sometimes cause me to play them over and over and over and over and over... again in the car while I drive. Like for an hour. But I always feel better.
(Both Pantera, and yes, the second one is a remake of the old Black Sabbath tune.)
( Suicide Note, Part I )
( Planet Caravan )
And now, I can't decide if I want to (figuratively) get out the popcorn and revel in the latest drama (that DOESN'T involve me!), or go the fuck to bed.
I'll head upstairs. Smithers says it's bedtime.
