What to Write.......

I was originally going to post about car angst... but I'm really no longer in the mood to do that. It'll probably be an entry later, though.

I rarely listen to music on my computer. Mostly 'cause I don't have a huge fucking collection of mp3s on my hard drive like blckwngdorcl does, and I rarely download music from the internet. I basically leave that to him. He has a better system than I have, anyway. I'd rather download porn. But I've been hankering to hear Live for a while now, so I finally got around to bringing the CD downstairs, and I'm listening to it the second time around now.

This CD (Throwing Copper) was one I listened to frequently about the time I was starting to fall in love with Fig, and when I was divorcing Leo. So, every time I listen to the songs on the CD that I associate with those times, I'm transported to that time. Listening to Iris tonight, I could feel a surpressed rage. That song always reminded me of Fig, and the fateful incident of the first time I gave him head, with all the things that followed. I tried to allow myself to feel it, and felt my usual frustration, not only that I tend to cut myself off from that emotion, and from the expression of it, but that I really can't scream and hit things when people are trying to sleep. I can't wait till I start Core again.

Anyway, I'm gonna include the lyrics to Iris, with my commentary on why I have the associations I do...

( Iris, by Live )