I Am Not Awake
Oct. 9th, 2005 09:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bookofmirrorsIt has occured to me that I don't have any icons of myself being amused-looking. I used to have this GREAT picture of myself laughing, that Johnny took on the same day he took the pic in this icon. It's been lost in subsequent hard drive crashes. walkingbear and I have been meaning to get together for some pics, but various things have gotten in the way of that. But I think I want a pic like that, laughing.
Today's agenda is working on the apartment, which I'll do after the husbands wake up. Hopefully, that won't be long, although there's part of me that would love for them to sleep all day so I have an excuse to do nothing. I do have two more days off (assuming no one answers my emails), so that's more of an opportunity. It's just that the apartment, which isn't fully put away, and therefore nowhere near my standards of clean, is starting to really grate on me. So, since the men of the house have (wisely) chosen not to do much on their own (because I'd just like re-do it anyway), most is left to me. I mean, that's a good thing, but right now, it's feeling overwhelming. I think there was some discussion about me not involving them in the process, but right now, I'm feeling like I'd like some involvement, or absolutely none. If they're here, I'll be asking them to help every so often. If they aren't, I have no distractions. Which, y'know, is a good thing and a bad thing. I do think they were talking about having plans to go over to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
misterrain's place, and/or possibly involving fornorald in something, so they could be away from the house when I started this endeavor.
So, yeah, feeling overwhelmed, and anxious. Feeling like I don't wanna do anything, but knowing if I don't, those feelings will just increase. I've been given carte blanche with everything that needs dealt with, which is cool. *sigh* I just need to get to it.
walkingbear and I have been meaning to get together for some pics, but various things have gotten in the way of that. But I think I want a pic like that, laughing.Today's agenda is working on the apartment, which I'll do after the husbands wake up. Hopefully, that won't be long, although there's part of me that would love for them to sleep all day so I have an excuse to do nothing. I do have two more days off (assuming no one answers my emails), so that's more of an opportunity. It's just that the apartment, which isn't fully put away, and therefore nowhere near my standards of clean, is starting to really grate on me. So, since the men of the house have (wisely) chosen not to do much on their own (because I'd just like re-do it anyway), most is left to me. I mean, that's a good thing, but right now, it's feeling overwhelming. I think there was some discussion about me not involving them in the process, but right now, I'm feeling like I'd like some involvement, or absolutely none. If they're here, I'll be asking them to help every so often. If they aren't, I have no distractions. Which, y'know, is a good thing and a bad thing. I do think they were talking about having plans to go over to
misterrain's place, and/or possibly involving fornorald in something, so they could be away from the house when I started this endeavor.So, yeah, feeling overwhelmed, and anxious. Feeling like I don't wanna do anything, but knowing if I don't, those feelings will just increase. I've been given carte blanche with everything that needs dealt with, which is cool. *sigh* I just need to get to it.
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Date: 2005-10-10 05:01 am (UTC)However, I have a suggestion about housework related stuff which I do: Light a candle or some incense and invoke Hestia. Do this just before you begin cleaning and the whole process becomes a magical working. Changes the character of the task significantly and, I find, makes it easier to begin and easier to conduct.