bookofmirrors | Life is Good

Well,

lunenoire is moving in, I got the TV from

wyzard_vyrnahnn's help), and I had a lovely dinner with

dai_syn last night.

I had to drop out of the Temple of the Red Lotus... my life is just too hectic right now. In the past month, I've been able to see about 3 people socially, and I feel like I'm being a social butterfly, compared to what I've been able to do before. I'm quite pleased that I've got some sort of life, but it's just not enough to be part of such a quickly-growing and wonderful group. They deserve more than I'm able to give right now, and I deserve to be able to be in situations where I can devote myself to them.

Which, y'know, leads me to be very grateful. I have many friends that I haven't had any contact with for several months. Some by design, but most because of schedule conflicts, and the huge majority of those have been on my end. And I've had no indication that anyone has really taken offense at this. Everyone's been really understanding. From my perspective, my level of close friendship with these people hasn't changed. They're still just as dear to my heart as they were when I was able to see them all on a regular basis. And, when I do get to see people socially, it seems that the feeling is mutual - we're able to pick up effortlessly where we left off.

That's a gift, I think. I'm thankful to all of you for whom I've been able to experience that firsthand, and thankful for all of you I still feel close to, but haven't been able to share time with - it seems that everyone has kept that place in their heart for me that I've kept for them. I've got a great group of friends.

In other news, the charge nurse where I worked resigned. I think she was disillusioned and stressed. Now, a long time ago, when I heard about us opening up another center in Marietta, I had asked to be considered for the charge nurse position. I'm not an RN, so I'm not sure that's possible, but I have management experience (more, I'm told, than the past 2 charge nurses Sona has had), and I'm good at it. Plus, I've been able to be out on the floor and know how things work already. Anyway, I've expressed an interest in the position. Not to anyone that matters, yet, 'cause the owners and such have been in Nashville all weekend doing some sort of corporate thing. But they did call around to all the nurses yesterday, to make sure we knew that the charge nurse had resigned, and that we were gonna show up on Monday. (Not sure what's up with that... did they think we were gonna mutiny or something?) I expressed an interest at that time, so it may have trickled back to the owner by now. The obvious choice for charge nurse doesn't WANT to be in charge of everything. She's already in charge of all the facial stuff, but she doesn't want the additional responsibility of everything else. There are only 2 other full-time nurses, and I'm one of them. I don't know how the other one feels about being in charge, 'cause she's been out all week, presumably with what I had the week before. So, we'll see if they hire in-house for it.

One might think that all the recent unpleasantness at work might put me in a poor position for getting a charge nurse position. However, I'm not 100% sure this is true. The charge nurse, to the best of my knowledge, never got around to putting anything on paper about it. And, although I didn't put it in my last entry about this (figuring it was all in my head), there have been some little things that make me wonder...

First of all, more than one person who is close to the owner has said that the things the owner was reported to say don't sound like something she'd say. Secondly, the charge nurse specifically instructed me not to discuss anything about it to the owner. Thirdly, the owner does NOT react/respond/relate to me like one would expect someone to relate to someone she wanted fired. Ditto for Dr. Kavali (although my interaction with her since then has been so brief as to be practically nonexistent, so I don't really think that's a good indicator one way or the other). I spoke to one of the other nurses on Friday, and she said that she's been watching the whole situation at work for a long time, and that she saw the way the charge nurse interacted with me, and that she truly thought there was something personal there, and that she knew for a fact that other nurses had done worse things than I had, and hadn't gotten a similar reaction/reprimand. She also didn't get the impression that anything that had happened had come from anywhere but the charge nurse herself. Combine this with the fact that I've gotten vibes (which I've dismissed, and I, of all people, should know better than to dismiss my own vibes) to this same effect since day one... well... it may be that there was never a push to fire me. Hell, it's entirely possible that the owner doesn't even KNOW. (I doubt that... she does try to stay informed about things at the center.) So, I'm curious, and I'll try to get to the bottom of it all in my own way, in my own time. But, in the meantime, I'm thinking that it's entirely possible that none of that nastiness will have an effect on whether or not they might make me a charge nurse there. I think the only thing that might stand in my way is whether or not LPNs are allowed to be charge nurses. The lady who runs the skin rejuvenation is an LPN, though. With years of asthetics experience, mind you, but I have years of management experience, so it might balance out. Sona doesn't NEED nurses to run lasers. That's one of their selling points, but it's not necessary by law, so my nursing skill might turn out to be secondary. I've never done payroll or scheduling before, but, to the best of my knowledge, neither had the other two charge nurses before they started. So........... wish me luck on that.

I work so much that I don't think my hours will be much different. Plus, it's sure to be more money, which is cool. So, if anyone who's interested in doing so could put energy towards that, that would be cool. (Not energy so much toward that specific outcome of me being charge nurse - just a push for prosperity or somesuch. I prefer to let the Universe work in its own way, and maybe this isn't the way. But I can hope!)

Oh! And while I'm thinking about it.... There's a post that's been percolating in my head for a long time, and little reminders keep coming up about it. But the post requires a poll, and much as I've tried to figure out how to make polls, and much as people have tried to help me figure it out, it appears to be beyond me. If anyone on my friends list is willing, I'd love to email you what I want the poll to be, and then have you email me back the code to make it happen. If anyone's interested in doing this, please let me know.

Thanks!

By the way, did I mention that life is good?