bookofmirrors | The Joys of Being a Libra

I really intented to make this a longer post for another time, when I could sit down with it and get more into it, but this subject has just come up again, for the umpteenth time, so I just wanna get it out.

I have found myself in an interesting predicament pretty much all of last year. The names and faces have changed, but the situation has always been the same.

I see people I love around me. They're in difficult situations. Usually, it involves a couple. Person X has issues. Person Y has issues. Person X and Y are together. Person X has something they need to work past. So does Person Y. For either of them to grow, their relationship has to change drastically, and sometimes (usually) painfully. Neither of them see it, generally. They're caught up in old patterns, or new loves, or they just plain don't have the perspective I do.

So, I find myself in a situation where I want EVERYONE to win. And usually, that involves one or more of them to be in a lot of pain for a while. It puts me in a really fucked up position. On one hand, I'm cheering when anyone breaks past their barriers and moves past it. On the other hand, I see the pain that the aftermath of that causes, and I feel compassion for it. But, again, I have that added perspective, and I can empathize, but not sympathize. Because I know it had to happen. And I know it's better in the end. Something horrible (to all appearances) happens, and inwardly, I'm really happy about it. Of course, I can't really say that, because it's rude, especially in the midst of all that pain. And, as I said, the perspective of the people in pain is skewed (no fault in that, just sayin'), so they can't see the bigger picture, how it will benefit them in the end, how they (intentionally or not, but usually just by engaging in their own patterns, good or bad) helped to bring about the situation, how they were the catalyst, oftentimes, for this change to come about. That it isn't always about them, sometimes it's about the other person. And the reverse is also true for the other person.

*sigh* I don't think I'm saying this right, or making any sense. I perhaps should have waited for the time I wanted to write this down more thoughtfully. Right now, though, I just want a shower and some breakfast. If anyone's awake, call and leave me a message on my cell if you wanna be my partner(s) in breakfast crime. :)