Nighttime Ramblings
Mar. 26th, 2006 02:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bookofmirrorsOK, so normally I'd be crawling my tired ass into bed, but mutual forgetfulness and neglectfulness has resulted in my HAVING to do laundry RIGHT NOW. (With all due respect to ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
barefoot1342's distaste for that phrasing, which I share. In this case, of course, it's pure melodrama. Usually, it's just me using an inaccurate colloquialism that I'm too lazy to try to weed out of my vocabulary.)
So, anyway, while I wait for the load to end, I thought I'd torment you folks in LJ land.
Today has been really weird. Surreal in many ways. I don't know how to describe it. I'm actually feeling extremely surreal as I type this. Might have something to do with Mercury going back direct, but I don't recall it ever affecting me like this.
BlckwngdOrcl and 
LuneNoire have reported similar feelings today.
Mine started out this morning.BlckwngdOrcl drove me to work so he and LuneNoire could go do the food/movie/gaming thing with 
Spy_Isis, 
ToguSpyder, and 
Dai_Syn. So, we showered together in the morning. This is pretty common for us, whenever we wake up together. Quicker, saves more water, and more fun (even though we're usually focused on business rather than pleasure). Anyway, after the shower, I got this sudden feeling that I can only describe like claustrophobia, which I've never had. Our bathroom is REALLY small, and we can barely both stand in it. This morning, fresh out of the shower, I suddenly felt just FILTHY, in a skin-crawly way. I didn't want to be touched, and I didn't feel comfortable in my own skin. As a result, I was just suddenly too close to BlckwngdOrcl. Luckily, I freak out so rarely that my telling him he needed to either get the fuck out right NOW, or get the fuck out of my way, was met with more of a startled and confused compliance rather than resistance. I explained myself as soon as I felt like I could breathe again, of course. But I felt weird all morning on the drive to work.
Work, of course, being work, I was too distracted to feel much of anything. A very good day, by the way. A HUGE number of clients, but we were fully staffed, and I don't think anyone waited for more than 10 minutes (for the nurses, anyway). We even got to do some laundry.
Then, my adventure began. I was about to embark on my first doorstep-to-doorstep MARTA journey. I've done the train thing before, to the airport, and to Atlantic Station, but never actually taken the buses. So, I set out from work. OK, first of all... fucking COLD. I don't wear coats, 'cause I typically don't go any farther from my car to the door of wherever I'm headed and back. And I forgot that I would be standing outside today, so I didn't get my coat out of the trunk, which is its permanent storage place (in case I get in a wreck and get cold). So... fucking cold. No major mishaps, though. Not a bad experience, except for that whole being exposed to the elements part.
Anyway, I got home, feeling kinda weird still/again, and sat down to catch up email/LJ while grabbing a bite to eat (starving!). After that, I pretty much immediately went to bed. I woke up in time to call my client, who had just gotten back from a week in Florida. They did want me to come, so I crawled out of bed. I felt... off. Not quite sick. Achy, but not really... nauseous, but not really. Just ...off. I check my temperature, which, if anything, was low, so I headed over. It was good to be there again. Felt a little off the whole time, including a tremendous sneezing fit, which prompted him to ask if I was sick. I told him I didn't think so. *shrug*
So, anyway, on the way home, very surreal feeling, especially as I was getting closer. I felt like I'd been gone a week, and I felt like I should be getting the mail, 'cause obviously no one would have gotten it while I was gone. (In reality, it had been checked a day or two ago, I think.) Even when I checked this feeling against reality, and knew that I had been here all week, gone to work, run errands, had appointments (hey, I even have the LJ entry to prove it!)... I just had this extremely strong feeling like I'd been gone a long time. In fact, it's persisting as we speak, with some sort of weird energy feeling between my shoulders. No idea what that's about.
Anyone else having this kind of experience?
The laundry loads have been switched out. I'm gonna wait to put the next load in the dryer, and then I'm heading to bed. Until then, random surfing.
Tomorrow, I have a photo shoot with
WalkingBear, which should be way cool. I'm somewhat lamenting about what to wear (even though we're planning on several shots where that won't be an issue at all...), but I'm mostly lamenting that I don't have a huge sheet or the like to go over my bed. Now that I know what colors I'm supposed to wear, I want to be surrounded in them, especially for something like this. WalkingBear, if you're reading this, I don't suppose you have any soft pink, yellow, green, or aqua sheets, or the like? Actually, what I'd loooooooooove to be shot in is this. One of my colors is "sugar cookie", and that would work nicely. Not to mention the feel of it against my skin. *purrs*
Also,WalkingBear, if you're reading this, you probably wanna wait for me to call you. I'm up much later than I intended to be.
OK, anyway... I'm off to surf and wait impatiently for laundry.
P.S. Like the icon? It's from an old photo shoot thatWalkingBear did. Not sure if it's legit to use a nude as the default (or any other) icon, but I like it, and I was tired of the boring ole mirror.
barefoot1342's distaste for that phrasing, which I share. In this case, of course, it's pure melodrama. Usually, it's just me using an inaccurate colloquialism that I'm too lazy to try to weed out of my vocabulary.)So, anyway, while I wait for the load to end, I thought I'd torment you folks in LJ land.
Today has been really weird. Surreal in many ways. I don't know how to describe it. I'm actually feeling extremely surreal as I type this. Might have something to do with Mercury going back direct, but I don't recall it ever affecting me like this.
BlckwngdOrcl and LuneNoire have reported similar feelings today.Mine started out this morning.
BlckwngdOrcl drove me to work so he and LuneNoire could go do the food/movie/gaming thing with Spy_Isis, ToguSpyder, and Dai_Syn. So, we showered together in the morning. This is pretty common for us, whenever we wake up together. Quicker, saves more water, and more fun (even though we're usually focused on business rather than pleasure). Anyway, after the shower, I got this sudden feeling that I can only describe like claustrophobia, which I've never had. Our bathroom is REALLY small, and we can barely both stand in it. This morning, fresh out of the shower, I suddenly felt just FILTHY, in a skin-crawly way. I didn't want to be touched, and I didn't feel comfortable in my own skin. As a result, I was just suddenly too close to BlckwngdOrcl. Luckily, I freak out so rarely that my telling him he needed to either get the fuck out right NOW, or get the fuck out of my way, was met with more of a startled and confused compliance rather than resistance. I explained myself as soon as I felt like I could breathe again, of course. But I felt weird all morning on the drive to work. Work, of course, being work, I was too distracted to feel much of anything. A very good day, by the way. A HUGE number of clients, but we were fully staffed, and I don't think anyone waited for more than 10 minutes (for the nurses, anyway). We even got to do some laundry.
Then, my adventure began. I was about to embark on my first doorstep-to-doorstep MARTA journey. I've done the train thing before, to the airport, and to Atlantic Station, but never actually taken the buses. So, I set out from work. OK, first of all... fucking COLD. I don't wear coats, 'cause I typically don't go any farther from my car to the door of wherever I'm headed and back. And I forgot that I would be standing outside today, so I didn't get my coat out of the trunk, which is its permanent storage place (in case I get in a wreck and get cold). So... fucking cold. No major mishaps, though. Not a bad experience, except for that whole being exposed to the elements part.
Anyway, I got home, feeling kinda weird still/again, and sat down to catch up email/LJ while grabbing a bite to eat (starving!). After that, I pretty much immediately went to bed. I woke up in time to call my client, who had just gotten back from a week in Florida. They did want me to come, so I crawled out of bed. I felt... off. Not quite sick. Achy, but not really... nauseous, but not really. Just ...off. I check my temperature, which, if anything, was low, so I headed over. It was good to be there again. Felt a little off the whole time, including a tremendous sneezing fit, which prompted him to ask if I was sick. I told him I didn't think so. *shrug*
So, anyway, on the way home, very surreal feeling, especially as I was getting closer. I felt like I'd been gone a week, and I felt like I should be getting the mail, 'cause obviously no one would have gotten it while I was gone. (In reality, it had been checked a day or two ago, I think.) Even when I checked this feeling against reality, and knew that I had been here all week, gone to work, run errands, had appointments (hey, I even have the LJ entry to prove it!)... I just had this extremely strong feeling like I'd been gone a long time. In fact, it's persisting as we speak, with some sort of weird energy feeling between my shoulders. No idea what that's about.
Anyone else having this kind of experience?
The laundry loads have been switched out. I'm gonna wait to put the next load in the dryer, and then I'm heading to bed. Until then, random surfing.
Tomorrow, I have a photo shoot with
WalkingBear, which should be way cool. I'm somewhat lamenting about what to wear (even though we're planning on several shots where that won't be an issue at all...), but I'm mostly lamenting that I don't have a huge sheet or the like to go over my bed. Now that I know what colors I'm supposed to wear, I want to be surrounded in them, especially for something like this. WalkingBear, if you're reading this, I don't suppose you have any soft pink, yellow, green, or aqua sheets, or the like? Actually, what I'd loooooooooove to be shot in is this. One of my colors is "sugar cookie", and that would work nicely. Not to mention the feel of it against my skin. *purrs*Also,
WalkingBear, if you're reading this, you probably wanna wait for me to call you. I'm up much later than I intended to be.OK, anyway... I'm off to surf and wait impatiently for laundry.
P.S. Like the icon? It's from an old photo shoot that
WalkingBear did. Not sure if it's legit to use a nude as the default (or any other) icon, but I like it, and I was tired of the boring ole mirror.
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Date: 2006-03-26 07:59 am (UTC)Yep! Not sure how much of it is in my own head, or is actually a semi-reality...but it is, as of right now, the bane of my tangibility.
feeling weird
Date: 2006-03-26 11:45 am (UTC)I just realized that you don't know me. Allow me to introduce myself. I'm Necie, and I was looking through the emeraldrosega live journal, and clicked on "Friends", and yours was the first post :-)
Back to the subject at hand though... I wonder how many more people have felt this way. I just had a reiki-one attunement this week, and I have attributed my weird feelings to the new energies from that.. but maybe there is something more going on...
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Date: 2006-03-26 03:05 pm (UTC)Re: feeling weird
Date: 2006-03-26 03:06 pm (UTC)Interesting that others are going through this, although I certainly wouldn't discount the Reiki thing. If nothing else, maybe it's making you more sensitive to whatever's going on...
Oh, well... more to come, perhaps!
Re: feeling weird
Date: 2006-03-26 03:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-26 03:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-26 03:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-26 04:38 pm (UTC)Your shyness shows in this picture. It's cute, touching.
If LJ tries to stop you, add two tiny blurry pixels. :)
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Date: 2006-03-29 08:31 pm (UTC)