What the Psychic Said...

[bookofmirrors]

I spoke with Candace Zellner at P&D. She was very good, although it took me a little bit to get used to her style. When I go to a psychic, I kinda expect to sit there and get talked at, but she worked best with direct questions; the answers come to her, but without a question, not much happened.

Anyway, I explained the situation of my own codependency, my husband's issues relating to dependency and job-searching and whatnot, and she had quite a bit to say about that.

Interestingly, she compared me to a tiger. This isn't the first time this has happened. I don't have all those tiger icons for nothing. She said I'd spent my whole life being a tiger, being the one to get things done, the mover and shaker type, being in control. Not aggressive, but certainly getting shit taken care of, and looking out for myself in many ways. She also saw me as a protectress. (There was more detail on that, which I'm not going to get into here.) She said I had a lot of masculine energy.

She then went on to say that I was in a transition phase. That I'd been the tiger, and now I was ready to be the kitten. To step aside and let someone else take control. Furthermore, she said, blckwngdorcl was moving in the opposite direction - from dependence to independence. She said that he was capable of supporting me and nurturing me, and was moving into that role. He was (is) manifesting a lot of feminine energy right now, and was moving into his masculinity, whereas I was moving into my femininity. She said he was going to rise to this challenge, and it was going to be a good thing for both of us. She said that it wouldn't be as hard for me to give up my control as I think it will - that if I take baby steps, letting go of things a little at a time, I'd be surprised at how easily the transition went.

She said that, right now, I had no idea how to be feminine, to be a kitten. That I just didn't think in that style. (People have told me this for a long time. A frequent statement to me is "You're SUCH a guy!!!") She recommended a book, Mars and Venus on a Date: A Guide for Navigating the 5 Stages of Dating to Create a Loving and Lasting Relationship by John Gray, saying that it would help me to see how feminine energy manifests/thinks. She said it would blow my mind, 'cause it was so far from my own current reality, but that it would allow me to get into that mindset.

(I haven't purchased the book yet. I didn't bother looking at P&D, 'cause it seemed too mainstream, and I haven't been to another bookstore since then.)

That took up quite a bit of time, I think. But I still had time left over, so I asked her about my path. I told her that I'd been looking at 3 paths: channeling (which I have no skill at, but was told a while back was a skill I had - more on that later), Core Energetics, or animal communication. She laughed, 'cause she said that, as I was talking about Core, she was thinking that, yeah, that would be *OK*, but she saw my energy more around animals, JUST as I was saying animal communication. She said that I would use Core concepts for both the animals, and for myself. She didn't really see the channeling, although I personally think that animal communication IS a form of channelling. She said I didn't need the classes, even if I thought I did. She said I had an antannae coming out of my third eye, that I already had that ability. She said to go ahead and take the class(es), if I felt like it, if for no other reason than to prove to myself that I didn't need them. She said she saw me teaching workshops on it. (Another thing I could see myself doing, and something that also ties in with my astrological chart - as does animal communication, for that matter.) She said she could see this happening in about a year.

There was more, but the rest is extremely private, and for my (and my husband's) ears only.

The main thing she kept saying, as I was telling her about what was happening, what I was thinking, and the steps I was taking, was that I was already doing exactly the right thing, and I didn't really need her. I suppose that's encouraging. Still scary, but encouraging.

OK. I have 2 more posts brewing. No idea when I'm going to make them, but I know it's not going to be tonight. I'm heading to bed.

Good night all. Thanks for listening.

Comments

[chimerawinds.livejournal.com]

Candice owns P&D...she's a really sweet lady....you could also try Carl when he is there. He is very good with cards as well. He runs Brigid's Well on some Sundays, too.

[bookofmirrors.livejournal.com]

It's a different Candace, actually. I thought it was the owner, too, but I walked in on a conversation where Candice the owner was talking to some employees, and telling them she was NOT Candace the psychic, and to make sure to clarify this with people when they scheduled appointments. She said that, in a pinch, she *could* do readings, but they weren't her thing.

[(Anonymous)]

How much did you pay her? I could read for you too if you paid me. Just kidding with you. I do think you could get the same stuff from a psychologist or counselor, or friends even. No offense, but it just seems so "backwoods" and on the same lines as supersticions. Do you ever think these things too like somewhere in the back of your mind? That maybe it's trickery? Even if there was some evidence of the person being psychic and knowing things that they couldn't have know- that it could be demonic? I think I remember now you telling me you didn't believe in the devil though. I could be wrong though. You do believe in evil forces though right- which I would call that demonic- basically the same thing. Correct me if I'm wrong.

Lucy

[bookofmirrors.livejournal.com]

Heh heh heh. She was $85 for 45 minutes. Expensive, but that's typical. Strangely enough, as I was contemplating the amount of money it would cost, I happened to be rifling through my purse, and found a $100 bill that I had no idea I had. I figured that was a pretty clear message from the Universe that the reading was a good idea, and that I was being given the funds to do it.

I've certainly been to psychics that I thought were full of shit. It's no secret there are charlatans out there. You always take your chances with any so-called psychic. Phoenix and Dragon has a good reputation, though, and sometimes you just get a feeling about being there at a certain date, or a certain time, and you'll get there, and you'll get a strong pull to see a certain person (or, in my case, I got the pull viewing the website).

I think a lot of pagans believe in evil, and evil entities. I'm personally not 100% sure these things exist, no matter what we may call them, or what effect we *think* these "evil" things have on our lives. Every experience, even ones we see as "bad", are learning experiences, and things we base every subsequent moment of our lives upon. Plus, to me, there's a sense of "other" in using the term "evil". It seems to give the implication that an *outside* source is "evil", and that this outside source is the cause of one's problems. Since I think that each person individually is the cause of his/her own problems, and since I don't think people are evil (although certainly sometimes they make choices I find personally appalling, and/or don't agree with), I just can't really reconcile the idea of "evil" as a force in the universe.

(Keep in mind that holding people responsible for all things that happen to them is NOT the same thing as blaming them. I do not, for instance, blame someone for having cancer. I do think, though, that they have cancer for a reason, one that might not be apparent. For Christians, I think that would equate to God working in mysterious ways, or calling an angel to heaven - for me, maybe it's more like someone having cancer in this lifetime, so they have that [subconscious] experience carried over into their next lifetime, where they might be an oncologist.)