Portents?

The Nine of Diamonds

The Nine of Diamonds is often associated with financial losses of one kind or another but its true meaning is that of a completion in regards to some values that we have been holding. For this reason, it could be an indicator of the ending of a certain kind of work that you have been doing for a long time, or the ending of a certain pursuit. This could be the pursuit of some financial goal, some relationship, or some other 'thing' that is valued.

When money does seem to be lost under the Nine of Diamonds, keep in mind that this is just the preparation for a new cycle of incoming money. Sometimes we need to spend some money to stimulate more to come in.

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Now this is interesting... add this little gem to the fact the the assistant director of nursing called me yesterday to ask me about an order I'd transcribed, which I'd apparently done incorrectly. As it turns out, not a major thing, as far as any harm goes, but a mistake nonetheless.

So, today when I wake up, there's a message on the machine from the director of nursing, wanting me to call her. Now, keeping in mind that she doesn't call people for just anything, and that the only other time I've been written up (for not clocking out for lunch... anyone who's ever worked with me has heard THAT soapbox speech), they didn't bother to call me at home, but just gave me the paperwork next time I was in there.............

Who knows, I might get fired today. Which would, incidentally, make it easier to have my anniversary off.

Seriously, though, I've been thinking about applying another place, and there are certainly many many nursing jobs to be had out there. Also, I said I wouldn't leave the place I'm at (which is arguably the worst health-care facility I've ever worked at, but it pays well) until this one particular patient was gone, 'cause she was my favorite, and I've become very close to her and her family. And, she gets discharged tomorrow. I'm supposed to work tomorrow. Not sure if that will happen now or not. They might keep me around just to avoid having to find someone else to do it, or they might not. The DON probably doesn't know I'm scheduled tomorrow, since I normally only work Friday/Saturday/Sunday. Apparently, for whatever reason, the state was in yesterday, and they were the ones that found the error. In cases like that, usually the person is gone, no ifs, ands, or buts. Mariner's not the most forgiving place to work, and they fire people for ridiculous reasons with little regard for the good things they've done, or the bind it puts the rest of the staff in, when we're already short. I've seen it happen to many people there. None of us have the illusion that we're immune to it.

And actually, strangely enough, considering our financial situation, I'm pretty OK with this.

Weird.

How 'Bout Them Metasymbology Cards, Eh?

Yep, I've been fired. "Terminated", they call it. Yeah, it wasn't completely easy. I tried screaming in the car on the way back... been trying to do that now and again, just to see if it might get out some repressed anger here and there. While I find it invigorating at times, doesn't really seem to do much for me. But, at any rate, I figured this might be one of those times I was angry or something and didn't realize it, so I did the screaming thing. Finding my voice and all that shit.

Didn't really do much. After about 2 or 3 times, I just stopped and laughed at myself. Either I'm really repressed and that didn't work, or else I really am as OK about this whole thing as I think I am. Last I looked, a few days ago, there were 63, count 'em, 63 jobs for nurses in my AJC job search mailbox. Maybe this isn't the path I'm supposed to be on, but I thank the gods I got the training when I did, 'cause I see a great many of my friends unemployed, underemployed, or not getting paid for the work they're doing. And I'm damn lucky I'm not in that boat.

I've already applied at the Breman Jewish Home over on Paces Ferry. I applied there once before, and really loved the look of the place, but I hadn't gotten my nursing license transferred from Illinois at the time, so they couldn't hire me, obviously. So, I went through their paperwork again. I went over there before I went to Mariner, so I could honestly put that I hadn't been fired from my last job on the application... cause, at that time, I hadn't. Aren't I clever? ;) Plus, I dropped the name of the Rabbi that likes me on the application.

I'm gonna call my second job tomorrow and see if they have any hours for me. I'm still technically employed there, so it's not like I'm completely unemployed at this point. So, hopefully that'll tide me over. I'll update my resume tonight, and make some phone calls tomorrow. The upside to this is that I don't have to go to work tomorrow, as I was originally scheduled to do, so I can sleep in if I decide to, and I can spend the time finding other jobs. Plus, tomorrow is payday, and I'm finally going to handle the GMAC thing. Someone called yesterday who was ACTUALLY WILLING TO WORK WITH ME. Amazing. So, as of sometime tomorrow when I make a payment, I'll be completely caught up. No more danger of repossession. Life is actually pretty good.

And, so, I reach the end of another cycle, and move on. I had said when I worked at Mariner that I wanted to work there as long as a certain patient was there, and she gets discharged tomorrow. I've done what I set out to do. I'm ready to move on.

Thanks, isarma for the phone call. I'll call back when I've rested a bit, or I'll see you online. :)