bookofmirrors | Shadow Boxing

I'm fighting with myself. I'm having these feelings, and I don't like having them at all. Worse, I can't figure out where they're coming from. And it doesn't help that they're COMPLETELY FUCKING UNREASONABLE.

What am I hiding from myself??? What am I afraid to face? What is it that resonates so strongly in me that I react this way???

I have a feeling the next few months are going to be as tumultuous as they are joyful. On the upside, though... I think I'll learn a lot. I'm not sure I'm looking forward to that or not...

Bear with me, those I love... I'm trying really hard to focus this where it belongs, and I'm trying to figure it out.